3/31/2011

Slip Out

I don't know since when I changed to such a cold-hearted guy
I have to warm this frozen, icy, lonely heart to thaw
I like being wrapped with warmness more than anything else for sure
I'm gonna make my coming days to be filled with laughter and joy

I let myself down that I'm more cruel than I thought I would be
I'm just a loser who ends up by caring for my soul
I don't give my heart to no one cause I don't wanna waste my time
I tried to love this loneliness to slip out of this lonesome hole

Sorrow is what I hate but it's grown my sensations
Regrets taught me how to make any hard decisions
Peace is always by my side but I've never felt it once
Love is not the word only for the sweet romance

Well, I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death
And I'm scared to keep on going on my way
Well, I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death
And I'll tell myself I'm special till the end

Recalling my torn, broken, aching heart of these long days
And all the memories I wanted to forget for making leaps
Recalling, breaking, aching, crying, making sure to me
And I take all and grin at my future on the way

無法接受

即使只是想想

也還是無法接受

不能理解為什麼CLAMP

會讓"籠"的番外出現百目鬼和五月七日的喜帖



為什麼他們要這樣?

這不是跟世界妥協的問題...根本就是在愚弄人的情感



可以有一個 模糊的結尾

但是不要打亂原有的感覺

那種心照不宣的隱晦 酸、苦、甘甜

然而卻被那樣突如其來的「事件」抹去一切

好像從前的那些記憶都只是 讀者的幻覺

為什麼不讓角色堅持己見 面對最誠實的自己



百目鬼心中最重要的人 永遠都是他不是嗎?

3/30/2011

FACE

Large lips in the motion
Trying to keep blaming on
As I say reason I'm late on
Find you turning
Laughing and smiling

Running over sometimes
Feel like you leave me behind
Now you don't have to mind it
Find you shining
Everyday by day

Sing it up, my sister
In this world which everyone is lonely
Everything will be fine someday

Remember
Playing in a backyard
Hiding myself in garage
Since you never could catch me
Find you crying
Weeping in darkness

Sing it up, my sister


In this world which everyone is lonely
Everything will be fine someday
Some other day

Large lips in the motion
Trying to keep blaming on
As I say reason I'm late on
Find you turning
Laughing and smiling

Sing it up, my sister
In this world which everyone is lonely
Everything will be fine
Some other day

Sing it up, my sister
In this world which everyone is lonely
Everything will be fine someday
Some other day
Some other day

BECK─ Moon on The Water

Full moon sways
Gently in the night of one fine day
On my way
Looking for a moment with my dear

Full moon waves
Slowly on the surface of the lake
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years

What a fool!
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
Ah~

I was sure
'Couldn't let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end


Oh my fair...
Floating like a bird that's in her wings
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years

What a fool!
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
Ah~

I was sure
'Couldn't let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end

Full moon sways
Gently in the night of one fine day
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years

3/26/2011

大家_最後

看了Holic的番外"籠"

有一種想要不醉不歸的感覺

百目鬼竟然要結婚了...

真是「心碎」



在最後

百目鬼告訴四月一日

五月七日最重要的人是他

四月一日問他說 你不介意嗎?

百目鬼說不會

因為對他來說 君尋也一樣是最重要的那一個人吧

所以他才可以接受



真的有種諷刺的感覺

只是做出了選擇吧

大家 最後

3/24/2011

刻意為己

想想有多少是人刻意為之的真實

都說好聽是要當自己

可是 什麼又是真正的自己?

這問題是沒有絕對、固定的答案的


所以 做自己是否變成了一種刻意勉強?

3/23/2011

找回心跳






今天第一次搭早晨的204

裡面擠滿了要去上課的高中生

空氣中瀰漫著

早晨的昏沉與堅強的疲累

由於車內很擁擠

剛上車的時候

差點撞進同站上車的男生

就在那個瞬間

似乎聽到了兩個人同步的心跳聲

雖然視線僅能停留在他的胸口

不過 他那時的表情到底是什麼

令人十分好奇

而且在要栽進前

竟然有種「安全感」在浮動

或許是因為他的身高吧

更多的原因是因為沒有確實地看到他臉上的表情

或許對他來說眼前的陌生人 帶給他更多的是困擾也不一定



這是一次奇妙、悅人的經驗

之前從未體會過的

3/21/2011

Billie Holiday - It Had to Be You

It had to be you, it had to be you
I wandered around & finally found, that somebody
who could make me be true
could make me be blue
& even be glad just to be sad, thinking of you

Some others i've seen might never be mean,
might never be cross, or try to be boss
But they wouldn't do

For nobody else gave me a thrill
With all your faults, i love you still
It had to be you, wonderful you
It had to be you ..

It had to be you, it had to be you
I wandered around & finally found, that somebody
who could make me be true
could make me be blue
& even be glad just to be sad, thinking of you

Some others i've seen might never be mean,
might never be cross, or try to be boss
But they wouldn't do

For nobody else gave me a thrill
With all your faults, i love you still
It had to be you, wonderful you
It had to be you ..


song

3/18/2011

Adele‧Rolling in the deep

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your sheet bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,



(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hands,
But you played it with a beating,

Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for,
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown,

(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.

3/17/2011

Pink Floyd - Time

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way

Tired of lying in the sunshine
Staying home to watch the rain
And you are young and life is long
And there is time to kill today
And then one day you find
Ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run
You missed the starting gun

And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you're older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death

Every year is getting shorter
Never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to nought
Or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way
The time is gone
The song is over
Thought I'd something more to say

Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
When I come home cold and tired
It's good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells

Time

Time to Say Goodbye

Andrea Bocelli & Sarah Brightman

La Musique

雖然現在還聽不太懂classic

可是卻很認真地在喜歡

弦樂真的是用來「挑情」的

鋼琴說真的就像是老朋友的聲音

讓人很習慣但偶爾還是會發現不同的驚喜與震撼

Oboe的聲音有點像是圓滾滾的孩童

尤其是在Mozart的Oboe concerto裡面

感覺真的很愉快



到現在還是很感謝 二ノ宮知子

她用一種很輕鬆的方式

讓人接觸到classic

3/13/2011

Quote

Quote:"想要變得幸福的人呢,都只是些根本不知道幸福是什麼的人而已... ..."

Oscar Wilde

Victorian Period epitomized writer

Oscar Wilde

3/12/2011

附和

「雖然附和眾人很有趣,但有的時候是很累人的... ...懂嗎?」

3/08/2011

很久沒這樣了

很久沒有短時間內一直重複看同樣漫畫的衝動

可是最近完全煞不住


一直重複地在看


或許 那個故事觸動到了

所謂的夢想 想要的那很大的一部分


所以才那麼如數家珍地重複



好美好的感覺!

是當下的感覺

3/06/2011

定義/分界

想過了

其實沒有什麼

只是膽怯了



分界線

起著分界的作用

寬度不同

也許線上就是所謂的

灰色的地帶



好多人想把身邊的事物都一一定義

但是 光是定義有什麼實質的意義?




白費力氣 在這瞬息萬變的泥淖中

3/05/2011

無‧理由

雙手

繞上咽喉

緊緊 用勁 纏住



雙眼默默地承受

他 扭曲的臉孔

慢慢地

感覺到反抗變得疲弱

掙扎讓步

退縮成 無言的哀求



冷靜

說明理智仍在作用

冷漠

被反覆折騰的情感 麻木




但卻 莫名地急切

急切地需要一個結局 一個解脫

發狠地 加重力道 催促




沒有什麼理由

She is Dead

Quote:「生活只是變化───答案誰也不能知曉。」